The extra bed was taken apart and given to my son to use in his new home. The extraction from the bedroom made for an empty space that soon became a dumping ground. “Don’t want to deal with it? Shut the door!” This became my MO.
A thought occurred to me after this cluttered room became my prayer room. The manner in which I attended to the empty space can be likened to my tendency of coping – especially with situations I’d rather not address. Just close the door and ignore.
What’s your MO? It probably depends on many factors, which have to do with how you protect yourself, keep yourself safe, or even hide. Do you hold onto your junk? Do you even know you have junk? What we do with the accumulation is significant. The junk is usually a work-in-progress and places us in a position of vulnerability and humility. It may seem easier to close the door and not look into the mess. Pileup seeps out somehow, and without attention, the seeping most likely will implode and/or explode in harmful, damaging ways.
In an Oswald Chambers’ devotional, he points out that the full extent of humility is usually realized when on the mountaintop of life – feeling overwhelming peace, having ultimate clarity, and being in the fullness of God’s presence. Chambers also points out that the mountaintop is a place God does not intend for us to linger. On the mountaintop we refresh and see and learn and revive. Then, we are directed to travel back into the junk and the mess of humility to grapple.
I view my experiences of humiliation and vulnerability as a gift from God. Those experiences mean soul growth and a deepening of my character. I am forever thankful for the mountaintop that feeds me and also for the directive back down because I am forever lead by my provisional Lord.
So the question remains: Do you need help finding humiliation and vulnerability in your MO?